Re: Losing You Forever?

[Guest]

Sarah frowned

"Why not?" She didn't understand what her father was thinking of doing, leaving them all for good.

John let out a single breath, as it hurt him to lie to his youngest daughter. "Because, he'll keep you safe, and you'll miss him wouldn't you?" John asked.

"Yeah but I'll miss you too," Sarah muttered before she started to cry.

[John Cena]

"I'll miss you too sweetie. Every single day you will be in my thoughts." John said.

[Guest]

"You will come back won't you?" Sarah asked holding her hands up to John.

[John Cena]

John picked Sarah up and held her tight in his arms.

"I hope so." John said.

[Guest]

Sarah just held on to John.

"Don't take Mr Cuddles, take Peter" Sarah spoke giving John the small white furry rabbit teddy bear.

"He'll look after you daddy" Sarah spoke with a smile.

(This is actually upsetting me Katie lol, ohh so you know I got those cerificates done .

[John Cena]

John sighed.

"Okay." John said.

(I know, it's so sad. Bring Torrie in to stop John from leaving! lol. Tearing Jorrie apart is too sad. And Yay for you! )

[Guest]

"Have a good day at work daddy, see you real soon" Sarah spoke with one final hug, while John gently stroked her blonde hair.

(Oh don't worry Torrie will stop John, just not yet lol think I'm gonna split Torrie up OMG no way! lol I just love them more in drama hehe.

Yeah the fundraising is later on today" I'm so excited hehe!!!

[John Cena]

"Yeah see you." John said.

(Good and I hope you have fun! )

[Guest]

Sarah giggled before she ran back inside since Dora Explorer was on. John just stared at the house, then at his car he had no sense of direction right now.

John got in his car, before he sighed forgetting important piece of paperwork. He went back inside, and went up to the bedroom. Torrie was curling her hair while listening to Bottom Of The Ocean.

"I thought you were going to work," Torrie spoke bluntly not even bothering to give John a second glance.

He just stared, and couldn't let Torrie what was on his mind but he wanted to let her know, no matter what he'll always love her.

[John Cena]

"I just want to you to know I love you with all my heart and that will never change." John said before walking out.

[Guest]

Torrie just continued to curl her honey coloured hair in the dressing full mirror.

"Yeah...yeah heard that before, just go to work John" Torrie snapped harshly.

"What do you think I'm doing?! John asked.

"Standing there, giving the same lies over and over again!" Torrie shouted back.

[John Cena]

"No I'm leaving." John said.

[Guest]

Torrie turned on her heel, to hide the tears in her eyes.

"Fine then just leave!" Torrie snapped.

John just stared, as he wanted to shout "For good" but he just couldn't even find the heart to say it.

"Torrie, just remember that I'd always love you" John muttered.

Torrie didn't soften in her expression.

"You walk out that door don't even think about coming back!!!" Torrie muttered back before she went upstairs not realising that it could be the last time she sees John in the house.

John just gulped before he walked into the living room. He continued to walk until he saw the wedding photo of him and Torrie on the mattle piece.

One of the best days in his entire life.

[John Cena]

John sighed as he stared at the picture then walked out the door.

[Guest]

Torrie blinked while she gently touched a strand of her blonde hair, curling it while she listened to Bottom of The Ocean by Miley Cyrus.

While she gently sung along to the song, she felt flashbacks from the past enter her mind.

It's been in the past for a while
I get a flash and I smile
Am I crazy
Still miss you, baby
It was real
It was right
But it burned too hot to survive
All that's left is,
All these ashes

Where does the love go
I don't know
When it's all set and done
How could I be losing you forever,
After all the time we spent together
I have to know why I had to lose you
Now you've just become like everything
I'll never find again
At the bottom of the ocean

John went back into his car, he opened it before he saw Kayla and Ella on the street laughing and giggling. Kayla Marie caught her father's stare, something that hurt John deeply is when she just turned away.

[John Cena]

John looked down before he started the car.

[Guest]

Kayla just stared at Ella before her cheeks formed into a smile while they talked sitting on the grass together.

John stared at his oldest daughter, before he muttered to himself "I'm sorry," He then reversed, and drove away before the car disappeared.

It was only then when Kayla's attention turned back to John. Her blonde hair shimmered across her face because of the wind.

"You and your dad okay now?" Ella asked.

Kayla just turned back to Ella, and fakily smiled. "Yeah" She muttered, smiling only to hide the tears.

Torrie had just finished curling her hair, she turned off the switch with tears in her eyes when she witnessed John leaving. She turned back to the CD player laid on her bedside table. She turned up the volume a little and just laid down on her bed.

In dark jeans, with baby pink cami top made out of lace with a white cargdian, with her black high heels. Torrie's back rested against the two pillows while she just sat alone in the room, with nothing but these four walls for company because that's all John had left Torrie.

In a dream, you appear
For a while, you were here
So I keep sleeping,

Torrie's eyes turned to the shelve, she got up and grabbed the silver decorated picture frame before sitting back on the bed.
Just to keep you with me
I'll draw a map,
Connect the dots
With all the memories that I got
What I'm missing,
I'll keep reliving

Where does the love go,
I don't know
When it's all set and done
How could I be losing you forever,
After all the time we spent together
I have to know why I had to lose you
Now you've just become like everything
I'll never find again,
At the bottom of the ocean

Torrie's eyelashes lowered down, before a single tear fell down from her eyes on the picture frame of her and John from their first Anniversary.
This is it
Let go
Breathe

"Why did you leave? why did you walk away?" Torrie muttered to herself.

"Why couldn't you have understood....that you hurt me so much..." Torrie muttered while she looked up at the ceiling shedding more tears.

You don't have to love me for me
To baby ever understand
Just know I love the time we both had
And I don't ever want to see you sad
Be happy

Torrie continued to listen to the song, before she gentle rubbed her fingers on her left shoulder blade listening to the lyrics on her own. She gently brushed her fingers over John in the frame only making herself cry even more.

And I don't wanna hold you
If you don't wanna tell me you love me babe
Just know I'm gonna have to walk away
I'll be big enough for both of us to say
Be happy

Torrie just lowered her head, while she waited for the next song to come on.

.................

John just continued to drive to the arena, but after that he had no idea where to go? all he knew he couldn't go back home, even though that's what he wanted to do but he had hurt Torrie, so much that he felt it was time for him to walk away and sort his own head out.

John continued to drive, before he heard Miley Cyrus "Goodbye" he went to turn it off, but then remembered it was one of Torrie's and Kayla's favourite artists, especially in the younger generation.

While he turned the steering wheel, he heard distant voices in the past of Torrie and Kayla in the car singing, with him moaning because he doesn't like Miley Cyrus.

John turned his head, to the passenger seat in the front. His heart sunk when he saw nothing but papers in the front they wasn't a giggle, no smile no nothing relating to Torrie anywhere he was just left alone...left in the dark.

................

John got to the arena. He opened his office door, and of course that was alone too. He walked to his desk, to see pictures of his wife, and amazing children on the desk.

[John Cena]

John grabbed the pictures and felt tears in his eyes.

"I'm so sorry." John muttered.

[Guest]

John lowered his head down seeing his arms around Torrie, her smile ever so bright along with his happy grin, before he heard Liz's voice ring through his head. Angered by this, John threw the picture frame of him and Torrie at the 12 rounds premiere.

He then realised what he had done when he heard the glass smash on the wall.

[John Cena]

John groaned as he looked at the picture and the shattered glass.

[Guest]

John walked over, and picked up the picture frame he then saw engraved in italic writing. "To my one true love, always and forever XTorrieX.

John continued to stare at it, before he brushed the broken glass from the frame, but then he ended up cutting his finger on a piece of sharp glass.

[John Cena]

"Ow!" John shouted as he grabbed his finger.

[Guest]

John just groaned not catching a break.

"God sake" He put the picture in the trashcan before he slummed down on his desk with a torn look across his face.

Shawn came in with a skip. "John! Cookies! do you get them?" He asked.

"What?" John muttered.

[John Cena]

"No, go away!" John yelled.

"But..."

"Shawn go!" John yelled.

[Guest]

Shawn looked at John.

"But you promised, you've been..with Torrie for days" Shawn whined.

....

Back at the House.

Torrie continued to sit on her bed on her own while she looked at her gleaming wedding ring and engagement ring.

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